Heyy Guys,
So, I'm getting sick. It sucks. Jared, my friend... (long story who most of these quotes makes me think of.) is sick and I think i'm getting it from being around him so I dont feel good. Aside from that, I'm about to lose my job bc my store is closing. Buttt... school starts Monday!! ahh. [one.]
look in the mirror & fix yourself up.
wash away those tears. be strong,
honey, suck it up. no one else can
know. paint on your smile & walk away.
you have to pretend you're fine. [two.]
I've been lonely tonight. I've been fighting the urge to
text him and tell him that I miss him. I don't want him to
know anymore. I wonder if he even misses me at all.
It's easiest when I don't see him, I won't deny that. But I
just want to be able to see him without it hurting. I don't
want him out of my life forever; I don't want him to forget me. [three.]
three sleepless nights, this isn't
how it's supposed to be, but you're
so good at taking your time to get
back to me. i will wait for you forever
if you would just ask me. it doesn't feel
right holding someone else's hand. [four.]
Don’t ever say you’re not good enough because if he can’t see how amazing you are then he’s not the one who’s not good enough. [five.]
The truth is, I can't be with you like this.
I mean, I know I said that I could,
but I can't. I just can't compromise myself like that.
I mean, I'm an emotional person.
I feel things & I need to be able to get upset,
and talk about how i'm feeling.
I mean, that's just, that's who I am,
and I can't change it. I don't want to.
And the thing is, you knew that, you knew it,
and you still pursued me. Because you want something with me [six.]
We don’t talk for days and I promise myself i’m
mad at you but then you call, or text, &just like that,
I don’t care how long its been as long as we're talking. [seven.]
You grab my attention when you walk in the room.
It couldnt be past midnight & I'm still thinking of you.
I can't control the feelings you got me going through.
I want to be yours, but that's up to you. [eight.]
you don`t need to be
" together "
to get your heart broken. [nine.]
Maybe instead of thinking you know everything,
let go of your ego for a while and you'd start to get to know her.
And maybe if you threw away your fears of getting hurt and just loved her, maybe you two could make it. [ten.]
In that moment I just wanted him
to push me hard against a wall and kiss me.
I didn't want to think anymore. I didn't want to question it.
I just wanted to feel it.
Sometimes that's all we need -- is just to feel it. [eleven.]
In life we learn a lot of things.
Which movie theaters have cup holders, which classmate
is most reliable to cheat off of, how to give & take advice,
how and why to love, which roads harbor hidden cops,
times to laugh or cry, & which towns have your bank's branch.
But among the most important things we learn is this;
just because we argue doesn't mean there's no love,
& just because we aren't related doesn't mean we aren't family. [twelve.]
i know we'd both like to forget everything
that has happened. we've become strangers.
strangers with a past. lately, i am realizing that i
don't miss you, i miss the way you made me feel. [thirteen.]
At least he's alive and well.
I love him enough that I want that.
I want him to have what's best for him.
I just don't want to stick around and watch. [fourteen.]
just once in my life, i want someone else to kiss first,
i want someone else to lie awake & wonder what the right words are,
if they'll be rejected, if they're ruining a great friendship.
i want him to want me so much that he can't help himself,
that he's willing to risk everything for a chance to be with me. [15.]
I'm not who you think I am.
in fact, my disguise is so thin
I'm surprised you haven't seen
right through me. I'm the girl of your
dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sorry they aren't all pretty n stuff again but I'm tired. My back is killing me. I really hope i dont get whatever Jared has. I gotta get up at 9 AM in the morning to take mt gradnmas cat to the vet too, so.. I'm going to bed it's 4AM. =/. Sorry guys, I hope you like the post anyway!!
-ash | 